Great creation idea.

The life you choose isn't one you'll ever get to live. People can't accept it, that's why so many commit suicide each year. They believe that they have the ability to just die and start over like a video game. News flash, if you commit suicide you end up in Hell. You're not allowed to pick what you want, like in movies. It's impossible but the only way to live a life better than that is through Him. 

I can't imagine what Hell would feel like, but the same can be said about Heaven. It just gives me a lifelong dream to look forward to. It doesn't matter if you have a problem with yourself because of how you act, look, feel, smell, or whatever. Comparing yourself to other people will more than likely make you feel less than them, unless you were born with a very edgy self love. Don't juxtapose yourself with others to make yourself feel better, or even out of habit. Lust and envy are both sins, as told by the Ten Commandments. Trust in God and He shall lead the way.

God loves you and that's more than enough to conquer anyone else's Earthly love for anything. There are plenty of those so called "near death experiences" every single day but if those people who were thrown into those situations were immersed in God's love, they wouldn't be known as "near death experiences" anymore. They'd be known as "near Heaven experiences".

I love you, every single person who reads this and every single person who doesn't.

God bless<3

You're haunting and yet I miss you, since the day that we met.

I just want to know this one thing. I want to know that it's real. I'm cutting out everything that I don't want and I want to know if you still want me to be in your life. I want to know that I've meant something to you. Granted we haven't really had the best relationship, but it's both of our faults. I'd tear my heart open for you if you asked, I'm just waiting for that day. Now let me know if this is the real you I've been talking to. Let me see behind your proverbial face, into your real mind. I can't count on my fingers how many lives I've seen people live that aren't their own. I just want things to be different. I could write a thousand more paragraphs on how I see you in my mind, but I'd rather just show you. Keep in mind I've done this all for you. I am to blame and I'm so ashamed.

This is the sonnet of the Wretched can you hear their screams?


I should let loose but I know I won't. I should find some better stuff to do in my spare time. I got so bored last night that I replaced the strings on my guitar. When I get to that point of boredom, I will literally start enjoying homework and strenuous activities that I find displeasing otherwise. I should stop talking to people that cause problems in my life but when they have problems I feel like it's my responsibility to stay in their life and help them. I should feel good when I cut out bad influences. I should try to work harder in all aspects of school so I can be considered to go other places. I should try harder musically so I can receive good reviews from college prospects who offer scholarships and full rides to their college. I should go on that road trip that I've been planning. I should get a job so in turn I could get a car. I should own a physical journal type thing so I can just write stuff down whenever I get the urge to. 


Tell me, when I read my poem will you hear the screams?

Leave her for dead.

I think that you hate me every other second and the seconds in between those filled with hate, you love me. Make up your mind. This may be applied to quite a few people I know right now.

You've been talking to my boys all wrong.

Can someone say free write being posted finally? It's going to be on my other blog.
This other blog may be accessed from my profile page, please go and check it out.


I love every single one of you, even if we barely see eye to eye.

Truth be told

My previous blog still makes me sick when I look at it. 

Sanctity of Life

President George W. Bush once said, "All human life is a gift from our creator that is sacred, unique and worthy of protection. On National Sanctity of Human Life Day, our country recognizes that each person, including every person waiting to be born, has a special place and purpose in this world. The most basic duty of government is to protect the life of the innocent. My administration has been committed to building a culture of life by vigorously promoting adoption and parental notification laws, opposing federal funding for abortions overseas, encouraging teen abstinence and funding crisis pregnancy programs. The sanctity of life is written in the hearts of all men and women. On this day and throughout the year, we aspire to build a society in which every child is welcome in life and protected in law. We also encourage more of our fellow Americans to join our just and noble cause. History tells us that with a cause rooted in our deepest principles and appealing to the best instincts of our citizens, we will prevail." 


This taking of life, so carelessly and maliciously, is a crime against God. He gives us the ability to bring life into this world, but we seem to misuse it so we can work on our ability of taking life instead. Why would anyone want to take life from someone who has no voice and can't fight back? That's just pathetic.


This might make you realize the severity of this massacre:


_Every year, about 42 million babies are aborted worldwide. That's 115,000 abortions EVERY DAY. 
_52% of these abortions are from women under the age of 25.
_64% of abortions are from never-married women.
_A baby is aborted every 22 seconds, in the United States ALONE.
_51 million babies have been aborted in the U.S. since 1963. That's the same number as the number of people living in Florida, California, and Texas combined. 
_93% of all abortions are due to inconvenience, 6% are because of medical reasons, and 1% is due to rape.


The term for supporting abortion is considered to be 'pro-choice' but it's not really a choice option. The baby that's being put up for abortion doesn't have a choice to live or be cold heartedly thrown away. You wouldn't want to be killed with no chance of surviving at all, would you?


Think about it. Seriously.