I tried to escape you

But the orchestra played on.
Why can't I just let this all go?
She seems to just let is all escape her with one thought, where it's taken me over a year to get to where I am. I haven't gone anywhere from where I was a year ago in this situation, but I can't go the rest of my time with her go like this. I wish there was someone else I could talk to about how I really really feel, but she's the only one I can spill my heart out to and not feel like it's going to be in the news the next day. Honestly, this is really one of those times where I'm scared about what's going to happen to our relationship and it freaks me out because I don't even know how I want it to end up. All I know about it, is that I love her more than anyone knows.

On another note, I'm sick and tired of these people I don't even like trying to hit on me and make me call them and meet them at the movies. I wish I could be meaner and tell them that I'm not interested in them and I don't want to meet them, call them, or do anything that involves them. They really piss me off and they make me have an angry face.

Well anyways, there's this one girl (I won't use names, ever) and she's pretty darn amazing. I still have to go meet her at a concert in the 28th and I really can't wait. I don't talk to her as much as I would like to, but it's getting better. All I can think about now is meeting her, thanks to me writing about it. I can't really describe how I feel about her though. I'm a very complicated person, but it's probably because I have so many problems. I just really hope that what I'm saying doesn't ruin my friendship with her. I guess you could say I like her, but like I said before, it's a complicated thing. I still need to meet her, before I come to any type of conclusion.
But, I am the patron saint of lost causes.

So get on your knees and pray for REPENT

So today, I found out that my grade in Biology is still shit, even though I got the highest grade in the entire class. I also realized that teachers really enjoy treating you like crap, if you happen to be really good in their class but don't pay attention. This, in turn, pisses me off so bad that I want to just get up and leave their class.
There's this one girl that stalks me, and I don't know anything about her except, we've never met in person and that she goes to school with my cousin, down in Tampa. She's really ugly and she tried to tell everyone that we were dating a long time ago. I don't talk to her, but she still knows a lot of stuff about me that I don't remember telling her. I know my cousin hasn't told her anything either, they don't like each other.It really gets on my nerves when people act like they know you when they really don't and then they start saying stuff about you that they don't even know anything about.
I've written more on this post than I have on my essay for English. That's pretty bad isn't it?
I really need to get unlimited texting, a job, a car, and a Macbook. Those are the few things on my list of things that I need to get soon.
My grandma is really been getting on my nerves lately, all she ever does is complain about doing things by herself. She never gives me any credit for the work that I do for her constantly, and when I ask her for something, she flips out and acts like I'm always such a greedy child. I'm not spoiled, or even close to it. She always gives my sister more credit than me and she doesn't do anything at all. Why does she do these things to me all the time?
My birthday is officially two weeks away, and I can't wait. But I really can't wait for March and April and summer because Daniel and I are going to go to a bunch of really awesome concerts.
I've also decided to be really stupid and define something.
Jamesaphobic [adjective] - the fear of being around, or seeing a James.

Not exactly what you think it means either.

Well, I'm off to do my homework so I don't fail.

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