I can't wait for Valentine's Day

Because I'll be alone.
But that's not really a bad thing because I like being single compared to being in a relationship sometimes. I just have bad luck in finding good relationships because when I do find a good relationship, it ends early.
I hate it.

I also hating having to cancel plans with people because of me being sick. I'm sorry if I have already, it should end soon.
Later today, I should be in Tampa, which makes me happy cuz I haven't gotten to visit my cousins down there in forever.

I'll put some more stuff up later, maybe.

When I grow old I'll be alone.

I heart PlayRadioPlay!
I drew a picture for them in Algebra, and Kristina helped me draw a fat dinosaur for it.
Oh geez, I keep getting distracted in the classes that I'm not doing good in.
I realized earlier today that I want to be the frontman in a band.
Seriously, I really want to. But I won't get my hopes up because there's not a good chance of having any bands that need a guy in highschool being their frontman.

On another note, I'm single. Don't get all cliche about it either or I'm gonna judo kick your ass. Not really feeling any deep emotions lately, I guess it's my sickness taking out my ability to think deeply about anything and replacing it with me wanting to sleep.
That's about all I can say.



P.S. I'm trying to makeover my life right now, so I'll be a little bit of a mess for a while. Don't mind it.

The tides have shifted like clockwork

This is for all of the people that have told me that they want me to get better, they'll die if I'm not better, and the threats that I have received from not being better already.




Thank You.
-James.

If we try hard enough, I'm sure we can forget it

BAD DAY.

I'm sick as I've ever been and it's probably going to last a while. No school for me today though. When I stand up, I get this major headache and it doesn't go away for a really long time, so I've resorted to not being on my feet too much today. I'm constantly cold, and I cough every few seconds. I didn't sleep more than an hour last night.
I really hope I don't get anyone sick.

Screaming is music too.

People really need to see that.

I think this girl that I know thinks that I'm going to break her heart, but she apparently doesn't know me. Some 9th graders need to learn. Apparently, so do some other people. BUT anyways, today was pretty fun, and the Algebra homework was really easy (:

I AM OFFICIALLY SICK.
Rocketships are great, and not paying attention in Algebra is too.
Chorus will bring me great success; I'm getting some lines in Grease, and I'm improving in my singing.
I hope I can get a career that doesn't involve too much deskwork or paperwork because that stuff sucks.
Oh geez, I really can't stand the sight of certain people; I get really really heartless when they're around and I take it out on other people.

Love, James

A Complete Catastrophe

I can tell I'm getting sick. AGAIN.

I seiously can't get this song out of my head, but at least it's not a bad song, you know?
I'm at my mom's work right now, and it's super boring. It gives me this MAJOR headache and it doesn't go away until I get distracted by stuff, which is pretty hard right now. One of these days I swear I'm gonna just like, throw away everything in my life that's important to me. I know I will and as much as I want to stop it from ever happening, I know I can't. Things are just getting too out of control in my head, it feels like I'm about to explode from the pressure I get every day. Some things just aren't worth it though, so don't worry about it happening soon. I have enough control to stop it for a while. Besides, I love my friends too much to huurt any of them at all. I'd be hurting myself at the same time. They're one of the reasons I'm not going to ruin anything, purposely. Sure, I don't really have more than one or two people to tell everything to, but those couple people are the absolute world to me. Everyone tells me that I care too much about other people, but, they really just don't care enough about other people. That's what I think.

On another note, today was actually one of the better days I've had this week, so far.

P.S. I want to start a band.



Currently Listening to: The Alamo Is No Place For Dancing - The Scene Aesthetic
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