The Unwinding Cable Car

Emotive unstable you're like an unwinding cable car

Listening for voices, but it's the choices that make us who we are

Go your own way, even seasons have changed just burn those new leaves over

So self-absorbed you've seemed to ignore the prayers that have already come about

This is the correlation of salvation and love (Don't drop your arms)

Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart

With quiet words I'll lead you in

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

Backing away from the problem of pain you never had a home

You've been misguided, you're hiding in shadows for so very long

Don't you believe that you've been deceived that you're no better than...

The hair in your eyes, it never disguised what you're really thinking of

This is the correlation of salvation and love(Don't drop your arms)

Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart

With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love(Don't drop your arms)

Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart

With quiet words I'll lead you in

You're so brilliant, don't soon forget

You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart

You're so brilliant, don't soon forget

You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart

You're so brilliant (This is the correlation)

Don't soon forget (Between salvation and love, don't drop your arms)

You're so brilliant (I'll guard your heart)

Grace marked your heart (With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark)

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la (Don't drop your arms)

La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)

(Don't drop your arms)

Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)

With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is the correlation of salvation and love (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)

(Don't drop your arms)

Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart (La lalalala, la la la, la lala, la)

With quiet words I'll lead you in

This is my absolute favorite song and when I get better at guitar, I'll perform it at a coffeehouse.

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P.S. I'll post more stuff later, after homework.
And, you probably won't read this but I'm in love with you. Even though you don't know it.

I can't think of anything else to do right now.

But blog and draw. And I suck at drawing so I'll hold off on doing it, for now.
People always say that curiousity killed the cat; what if I'm not a cat? I hate having this whole part of me that wants to scream. It's really getting unfair now because I want what I can't have and I don't want anything more than to feel what it's like to have that back. Mr. Brightside, the song, really sums up how I feel quite well. "Gotta gotta be down, cuz I want it all." That line completely speaks what I could only say in a speech.
Im starting to listen to more alternative style music lately, I don't know why either. But Anberlin is my new favorite band as of Friday, I think it was. Hopefully, I'll be able to go to all of the concerts that are coming up in March, April, and over summer. Daniel has a really long list of ones that he wants to go to, mostly through March and April.

School is getting easier and easier to control and I'm not freaking out so much as I was a week ago. I can only hope that it keeps improving like this, or I'm going to have a problem.

I've come to realize that I need a haircut soon, so I'm going to get my mom to schedule it soon so I can get it cut like the picture I posted.

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Oh what an exciting weekend.

I meet this amazing girl, and then I come home.
I'm glad to be home though, this place is where I've begun to belong.
I saw two Red Bull cars chasing each other down the highway in Tampa.
My life is beginning to turn itself around again, and I'm extremely happy.
I have a new favorite band as of today.
I'm freaking out about my grades, still, but I'm working on bringing them up to their former glory.

Pfft, I'm so tired.
Goodnight.

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I'll keep a secret of why I miss you.

Sometimes, I want to be someone else. Someone more professional and someone who's made something good out of their life already. But I can't and that makes me want to just either try or give up, depending on my mood.
I can't find the motivation to finish any homework or classwork that I have; I'm really worried about what it's going to do to my grades if I keep this up because I'm already needing help in Algebra and World History is getting pretty intense now with all of the classwork. I can never find the time to do my homework and finish it much less understand it.

This is how I want to make my hair look.

When I grow old I'll be alone.

I heart PlayRadioPlay!
I drew a picture for them in Algebra, and Kristina helped me draw a fat dinosaur for it.
Oh geez, I keep getting distracted in the classes that I'm not doing good in.
I realized earlier today that I want to be the frontman in a band.
Seriously, I really want to. But I won't get my hopes up because there's not a good chance of having any bands that need a guy in highschool being their frontman.

On another note, I'm single. Don't get all cliche about it either or I'm gonna judo kick your ass. Not really feeling any deep emotions lately, I guess it's my sickness taking out my ability to think deeply about anything and replacing it with me wanting to sleep.
That's about all I can say.



P.S. I'm trying to makeover my life right now, so I'll be a little bit of a mess for a while. Don't mind it.

Your Destiny Near and Far.

Ew, Noelle found Mr. Kubik's Myspace and that's not worth freaking out about.
I have no idea how to do the Algebra homework, once again, because I was out too many days.
I can't get America's Suitehearts out of my head, it's just too good.
I'm getting really tired of sucking up at everything lately, so I'm gonna take a break from playing games and stuff until I'm better. Except Resident Evil 4.

I like meeting up with friends I haven't talked to or hung out with in forever, it's a great thing.
Hmm, can't find anything else to say so I'll just treat you to some DDG lyrics.
Enjoi.

Dressed For Friend Requests
See through the wreckage
Into the fire
Inside my heart
Bullet to the head
Soon you'll be sleeping silent
Pull this trigger to your antidote
She's dressed to kill
I don't know what to wear
She's dressed to kill
She's dressed to kill
She had the eyes of an angel
With a heart like a traitor
And a gun with a trigger
In her hand pointed at her
We always knew you'd go up in flames
We always you'd go out with a bang
We're going nowhere fast
Your just jealous
Yeah


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Screaming is music too.

People really need to see that.

I think this girl that I know thinks that I'm going to break her heart, but she apparently doesn't know me. Some 9th graders need to learn. Apparently, so do some other people. BUT anyways, today was pretty fun, and the Algebra homework was really easy (:

I AM OFFICIALLY SICK.
Rocketships are great, and not paying attention in Algebra is too.
Chorus will bring me great success; I'm getting some lines in Grease, and I'm improving in my singing.
I hope I can get a career that doesn't involve too much deskwork or paperwork because that stuff sucks.
Oh geez, I really can't stand the sight of certain people; I get really really heartless when they're around and I take it out on other people.

Love, James

A Complete Catastrophe

I can tell I'm getting sick. AGAIN.

I seiously can't get this song out of my head, but at least it's not a bad song, you know?
I'm at my mom's work right now, and it's super boring. It gives me this MAJOR headache and it doesn't go away until I get distracted by stuff, which is pretty hard right now. One of these days I swear I'm gonna just like, throw away everything in my life that's important to me. I know I will and as much as I want to stop it from ever happening, I know I can't. Things are just getting too out of control in my head, it feels like I'm about to explode from the pressure I get every day. Some things just aren't worth it though, so don't worry about it happening soon. I have enough control to stop it for a while. Besides, I love my friends too much to huurt any of them at all. I'd be hurting myself at the same time. They're one of the reasons I'm not going to ruin anything, purposely. Sure, I don't really have more than one or two people to tell everything to, but those couple people are the absolute world to me. Everyone tells me that I care too much about other people, but, they really just don't care enough about other people. That's what I think.

On another note, today was actually one of the better days I've had this week, so far.

P.S. I want to start a band.



Currently Listening to: The Alamo Is No Place For Dancing - The Scene Aesthetic
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